Hurry up and wait
By Enid Dufresne
I profess to be a patient person and for the most part I am. I am patient when my children are telling me a very, very detailed story about their day. I'm patient when I am listening to my clients tell me the details of their lives. I'm patient when my dog needs to pee of every post we pass on our run. I'm even a patient driver during the most hectic rush hour traffic. And then there are times when I am very impatient.
I'm impatient when I have to wait for my husband to complete his errands in "his own way". I'm impatient with myself when I say I'm going to do something and then I don't complete it in the way I intended. And I'm most impatient when waiting for my "wish list" to the Universe to manifest.
I've become aware that when I'm patient it is because I expect to wait in these situations. When I'm impatient it is because I expect these situations to flow in the time frame that I've decided works for me. Deepak Chopra has a new book "Why is God Laughing" and I'm pretty sure the answer is because Enid Dufresne-Dario thinks she knows how and when her plans should manifest. (And because she speaks in third person).
I know I'm not alone in this "I've got the plan all figured out, God" affliction. I hear it from my friends, my family, my husband, my colleagues and even my clients. But how did we get here? Is it part of this new consciousness we are ushering in? Or is it because we in the Western part of the world have come to expect instant everything. In one short life-cycle we have gone from lamp-lights to solar lights and from horse and buggy to airplanes and automobiles. I think because of this unbelievably rapid progress, which seems to have set the pace of our times, many of us think we should apply this same accelerated speed to the Spiritual unfoldment of our lives. I'm contemplating, "Why the need for speed?" when quite often I end up hurrying up to wait. In fact, when I do surrender to the Universe's schedule and just carry on life as usual, amazing results come to be.
This past June I was in a situation where my daughter Kassie decided she did not want to return to the alternative school she was attending. A short time after this I was attending an ESAGE (Edmontonians supporting a green economy) meeting where I ran into my dear friend Terra. She began to tell me about this awesome learning system called "Wonder Tree". She mentioned that the gentlemen who had started the program had written a book about it and in fact she had just given the book to another friend Casey Doss. The next day I googled Wonder Tree (because I'm the google queen). I shared the info with my business partner Nathalie and we discussed how awesome it would be if our kids could attend something like this. Fast forward to the end of August and both Nathalie and I are attending another ESAGE meeting and who do we run into? Casey Doss. We strike up a conversation with her asking what she is doing in the fall and she mentions that she is not returning as a teacher to the public school system. We ask her about the Wonder Tree program and she says it would be a dream come true to be a part of a program like that. Long story short, and many synchronicities later, our kids are now attending an amazing program called T.R.U.S.T. ran by our beloved Casey. Nathalie and I literally did not do a thing except plant the seeds that we would love a school like Wonder Tree for our kids. We allowed the seeds to germinate and grow and when the Universe revealed the time for harvest we took action and picked the fruit - how sweet it is!
I truly was not worried or fearful about Kassie's school future. I knew something was going to work out. I'm also clear that if I had tried to make something happen back in June, Kassie would not be attending this new learning centre. I would have sabotaged yet another of Spirit's plans for me or at the least slowed it down. How many times have I continued to slow down my own progress. Rev. Michael Beckwith says that if we are not experiencing all the joy, love, abundance and freedom we want in life, it is only because we are mentally and physically blocking our own good. No Wonder I'm exhausted!! It takes a great deal of energy to fight the whole Universe.
As I write this article I have made a committment to myself to get the H*## out of my own way. I will allow the brilliance of the Universe to design the plan for my desires and I shall wait in great anticipation and curiosity as to how, when and where they will show up. And even more than this, I shall wait in the grace of gratitude to be showered with my blessings and I shall be Thanks-giving.
Posted in: on Tuesday, December 9, 2008 at at 11:32 AM
